a sprinkle of fairydust...

i'm so tired but i just have/feel like i have to post. its been like eons since i last posted.
(sounds so sec 1 post but...)these few days, choir has been, like living hell. literally.
or ok, i'm just exaggerating as usual. its really fufilling to realise that we have improved since like feb?
but i am so tired. just so exhausted.
:/
i want 30th to come soon even if it doesn't help with my lack-of-sleep-resulting-in-horrendous-eyebags problem but it'll like be the official clique (for want of a better word) outing.

I.AM.EXHAUSTED.
if i post anymore, i'll prolly sleep here so ugh better eat dinner now. soon.

choir everyday is really not good for one's sanity and health. my feet are hurting. and maxine ow had to emergency sms me yesterday about her major breakout thingy just before i wanted to sleep.

mind the long and complainy and incoherent post unghh. :/

i was just walking along the path down from school the other day and i thought: how on earth am i supposed to trust Her?
after all she's done. i tried so hard to be forgiving but its never, never gonna come.
even though i try my hardest to pretend nothing's happened, as we all do, i think She can still sense it.
its like an invisible barrier that breakes us up. Her, from the rest of us.
and seeking my forgiveness! thats a stupid thing to do. what She said just served as a reminder, albeit a late one, of whatever and however She has tried to concealed to us. i don't know why She does that or what motive She has. its so stupid.
i don't think i have enough trust in me to ever forgive and forget for the second time. its been too many times.
i don't think She'll ever see this but. ohwells.
like stealing my camera is not bad enough, she has to hurt as all again.
<3

thankgod EE's with me.

trying to concentrate over poetry now but failing so yet again, its time for personal TOT with lette.
nothing much to say, except that she OBed a lot as usual and i got to know her deep dark secret, well, sort of :D
and yeah still wondering who mr impt is.
right now i can do nothing but guess and wait till JC...

just heard hero by mariah carey(i think)

the lyrics are nicee and meaningful and if i'm not wrong, the sec 4s sang it. but yet again, my memory fails me:/


Hmm
Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
Mhhh
That a hero lies in
You


~wish upon a star~

as said above yesh, played personal TOT with lette yesterday. although i shan't reveal anything here cos of obvious reasons. really enjoy personal TOT, but also hate it cos now she knows almost everything. erh, lette's life is so scandalous la.
just praying that she doesn't leak out to anyone or my life will be OVER. 
i guess some things you just cannot force, like the number of OBs someone wants to use. :D pracically OBed everything i asked.

but most importantly, i know her better now...

WOOSH love tot.

Phrase of the day:
obstacles are but only tests of your ability. we must must persevere on, regardless. leave the past behind us and strive on. even if its so hard to walk that path alone. ♥

remind me to remind quek to give us the lyrics

feeling awesome now that i have almost completed lit pt. but anyway today was an awesome day (albeit pretentious) cos went back to ij to visit mrs tan and other random teachers i now fail to remember. epic fail. doubt i'll go back next time too much of a chore pretending that i'm so interested in the concerts and dedications...

sighh this week, or rather last week, was quite a bad one. like everyone was freaking out over FW and BPs. thank god the FF has decided on a plan.
sometimes i really appreciate you guys and love fiera <3

this is gonna be short i guess. feeling tired already cos of posting too much my hands hurt.

ohh and one last thing:
my resolve/goal for this blog:
DO NOT SOUND EMO
it is bad.
not like i am anyway.

it feels like friday...
~the wind in our faces~

P.s. short forms are needed for the privacy of some matters